Today is Monday.
Today I have had some of the worst allergies I’ve ever had in my life.
I think it’s because I stayed up too late last night working on this website and it’s compromised my immune system.
Today has been slow to say the least.
I went to the store and got some shampoo because we didn’t have any.
I took a shower and I checked my email.
I ate some nacho flavored corn chips.
I watched TMZ, my guilty pleasure.
I recorded a Vlog with my webcam.
I took this picture of the thing causing my misery.
Sometimes I struggle with leisure.
I think that this is pretty common, but I have a really hard time really relaxing.
Often times I find my self beating my self up inside my head about the things I “should” be doing instead of enjoying the things that I am doing.
I often think of my self as a rather lazy person.
People have often told me that they think that I’m lazy and I guess I just took it to heart.
What exactly does it even mean to be lazy though? Why does society always expect us to be doing things?
I mean really, is doing something just for the sake of doing something a good reason to do it?
How far will that really get you in life?
I guess that’s kind of what I’m doing right now.
I don’t really have anything that important to blog about.
There are no big exciting things going on that I have to talk about.
I just thought that I would start writing and see what happened.
I took a few pictures of the things that are causing me pain currently and I started complaining about them to you.
Is complaining doing something?
I would tend to think that it’s not.
That’s the thing about laziness, it’s all relative.
Someone might say that I’ve had a lazy day today because I didn’t go to work.
On the other hand, I went to the store, and I made my self breakfast, I shaved, I took a shower and washed my hair.
I even walked to the store to get the shampoo, I could of driven and I think that probably would have been lazier.
I’ve always been amused at the expression: “He work’s hard and he play’s hard”.
How excatly do you play hard?
(I really didn’t mean for that to sound as dirty as it does.)
What does it really mean to relax and when is it appropriate to do so?
How does one really find leisure in their lives?
I find that creating things relaxes me and leaves me feeling less lazy than watching TMZ or even reading a book.
I guess everyone finds their own ways to relax and “take it easy”.
People tend to like to drink alcohol or take drugs to relax.
I used to do a lot of drugs when I was a teenager and I drank quite a lot in my twenty’s.
Now I don’t drink or take drugs and sometimes it can be challenging to figure out how to “let loose” and “party”.
I think that sometimes people assume that because I’ve chosen not to drink or do drugs anymore that I’ve chosen not to have fun anymore.
This could not be further from the truth, I have so much more fun now that I’m not numbing my self to the world.
I have no problem with people drinking or doing drugs, if that’s something that they want to do with them selves I’m all for it, what ever makes you happy.
It’s just something that I’ve chosen not to do for my self anymore.
Every second of every moment we choose what we want to do and who we want to do it with.
Life is not as black and white as I had once perceived it to be.
Perhaps doing something just for the sake of doing something is all right.
It’s probably better than beating your self up in your head and thinking that you’re lazy.
I think that beating my self up in my head is one of my biggest problems in life.
I guess just doing something other than that is good enough.
Thanks for listening.